Who will hear the words whispered within you, echoing in your heart and mind? Who will truly listen?
Lately, I have been wanting to build a bridge between Myanmar and Japan. I imagine a world where Japanese people find opportunities in Myanmar, and Myanmar people thrive in Japan. Together, we would forge a unique path—a way of living and working that transcends borders.
But in reality, my actions have been driven by impulse and fleeting chances rather than careful planning or consistent effort. I dream of this vision, but my steps toward it are sporadic and unfocused. I feel like I’m just chasing moments, not building a foundation.

The Gym That Never Happens
I made a decision to go to the gym regularly. I even paid for a whole year in advance, thinking that commitment would motivate me. Yet, I couldn’t stick to it. It’s just a gym—a simple, straightforward plan. But I couldn’t follow through.
How weak am I? Should I be disappointed in myself for wasting both my money and my resolve? I feel frustration building up, not just because of the money spent but because of my own inability to keep a promise I made to myself.

Time Lost, Mind Scattered
Today, I gave my time to people and tasks, but I wasn’t truly there. My body was present, but my mind wandered elsewhere. My phone controlled my attention, my eyes glued to the screen while I let precious moments slip away. I could feel it happening—watching myself waste those fleeting, valuable moments, unable to stop.
When I’m not intentional, not grounded in the present, my mind and heart scatter like leaves in the wind. I become restless, distracted, and easily bothered by people and their actions. I feel detached—trapped between wanting to be present and being pulled away by endless distractions.

Tired and Hapless
I am tired. Deeply tired. It’s not just physical fatigue—it’s the weariness of being pulled in different directions, of not living up to my own expectations. I feel hapless, caught in a situation I don’t fully understand.

A Glimmer of Hope
But then, a verse came to me:

“So let us not grow weary in doing what is right, for we will reap at harvest time, if we do not give up.”
– Galatians 6:9 (NRSV)

Hebrew Version (Modern Translation):
וְאַל נַעֲיֵף מֵעֲשׂוֹת הַטּוֹב, כִּי בְּעִתּוֹ נִקְצֹר אִם לֹא נִתְעַיֵּף.
(Ve’al na’ayeif me’asot ha-tov, ki be’ito nik’tzor im lo nit’ayeif.)

• Translation Breakdown:
  • וְאַל נַעֲיֵף (Ve’al na’ayeif) – Let us not become weary
  • מֵעֲשׂוֹת הַטּוֹב (me’asot ha-tov) – from doing good
  • כִּי בְּעִתּוֹ (ki be’ito) – for in its time
  • נִקְצֹר (nik’tzor) – we will reap
  • אִם לֹא נִתְעַיֵּף (im lo nit’ayeif) – if we do not tire

Perhaps this tiredness is just a phase—a hurdle to overcome. I must not give up on doing good, on striving to live the life I envision. I need healing—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I seek guidance to realign my life with God’s will.

Today was a struggle, but maybe tomorrow holds the promise of a fresh start. I just have to keep going—one step at a time.